I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you allow it be?” a course in miracles This confused me as I really could not think of anything that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere having its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.